Sep 11, 2019
Is there such thing as good or bad?
Let's
talk about the owl symbol I mentioned last week. Recently during a
yoga class, the instructor brought in an owl feather with her.
Crazy, this sign follows me again. The owl she said is telling us
to look at our shadow.
Think
about it. The Owl’s x-ray vision eye’s allows it to see in through
the darkness, and beyond the veil.
You
have to face your shadows and your fears, this helps you move
beyond them and find true joy.
The
instructor started the class with a story of how a someone at her
work was demoted.
She
said this person feared being demoted so much that they were
consumed by the fear and it did end up happening.
Now
that they lost the one thing they were holding on to for dear life,
they no longer felt like they were chained or trapped.
They
could be who they are. They could speak up without
fear.
Who
knows what if this demotion, although financially difficult I’m
sure, will help them grow in other areas within their
field.
What
if it’s not a bad thing. What if this is a giant opportunity and
not a failure. Wouldn’t you live a happier life if you looked at it
that way?
What
is good or bad?
Are
you having a good day or a bad day? Are you being a good person or
a bad person? Could it all be relative?
So at
the end of my class I was feeling good. Sometimes I spend the
entire hour in tears, other times I try to quiet my mind. This time
I was feeling pure joy.
Hearing this story made me feel like I had let go of a
side of me. This feeling of complete freedom is on the verge of
being reborn. I think that’s why these signs of rebirth continue to
follow me.
Here
is what I got— the Comfort card arching Azrael the message says
“even the strongest person experiences upsetting situations and
there’s no shame in taking time to heal your heart. This is a good
times for quiet reflection upon your true feelings. Write them down
in a private journal and call upon me to bring comfort to your
heart and mind. I can help you sleep better at night and put your
mind at east.
The
other card I put was an animal card that says to embrace spirit
with a photo of an eagle.
“Eagle conveys the powers and messages of
the spirit; it is
man's connection to the divine because it flies higher than any
other bird. The eagle brings the message of renewed life because it is
associated with the east winds - the direction of spring, dawn and
rebirth.”
This
says you’re a spiritual being living a physical life. Embrace the
spirit in your journey and reaffirm your connection with the
Divine.
The
message ends with saying both the creative and the destructive, the
beautiful and the ugly are born of the Divine.
This
takes me to the message of the good and bad.
I had
a talk about what message I had to learn from my last relationship.
I continue to struggle to find the lessons in this. Yes I am a
whole lot wiser.
I
don’t make excuses for other’s actions.
I see
where I could’ve paid closer attention instead of turning a blind
eye.
Innately I feel I have this giant heart of goodness,
filled with love, care and the impulse to help heal and be
good.
My
leadership today is different. I aim to heal by being leader and
holding space. It is up to the individual. This is possibly one of
the lessons I’ve taken from the heartbreak. You cannot help someone
heal if they’re not ready or don’t want it.
So
when I told the yoga instructor that I don’t know where the mirror
was, what exactly I was supposed to see. I told her, I never
judged. She stopped me right there and immediately knew. I had
always tried to be “good” yes in quotes.
Would
it have been "bad" to judge, she asked.
Why?
I have yet to figure it out. It’s probably because I liked the
praise. It could be because I don’t want others around me to be
stressed out, and in this vicious cycle as an empath I typically
would end up feeling that stress.
But
she said maybe you could have judged? Why did you think that’s
bad?
In
that moment I had one of those aha moments.
Maybe… I should have judged.
Maybe
it isn’t bad to judge.
Maybe
judging raises questions and opens you up to conversations you
wouldn’t otherwise have.
She
told me she struggled a lot with good and bad in her
20s.
Today
she feels there is no such thing.
This
definitely does not mean throwing your morals out the window and
being evil, but this notion of holding on so tightly to what our
culture has engrained in us to believe is 'good'… to be a lady… to
bite our tongue… to not judge… to … you name it… I think that might
be hurting us in the long run?
Something to think about.
My
experience is just that. My life experience. The people who have
come to my life and hurt me, is just that, my pain and my healing,
but I hope this story gets you thinking about your image and these
labels of good and bad and meditate on if that’s hurting you or
helping you. Is holding on to being labeled good actually a bad
thing?
Is
there such thing as good or bad?
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